The stress life

Recently, I am quite busy with some activities or competitions. For your information, ever since I was young, I am always the active one that loves to get involve in a variety of competitions or activities.Being the practical down to earth person I am, the purpose of participating in any competitions or activities may able to upgrade our own talents and lead us to a better future..
These days, I had came across some tough problems that consist of many choices that require a lot of considerations~~
Here comes it----1) One of my Malay teacher would like me to participate in the Malay Debate Competition that will be held on the 1st April and 2nd April. 2) One of my Chinese teacher would like me to participate the chinese debate competition that hold in school today as a guide for the teacher to select representors for the distrcit level competition that will be held on the 2nd April. 3) One of my discipline teacher would like me to participate a coarse about leadership that held today either..
Oh, my God! I was mad of it.. As I need to make a tough desicion to decide what competitions should I participate.. I am a piece of blank at first. Actually, before that I was planning to go for the coarse as one of my friend from another school is going for that coarse too and I can't wait to see him after couple of months we did not contact each other.. But if I participate that coarse, I could not ever participate the chinese debate at all...I started to feel that I will be so selfish if I had ever go to that coarse as we all know that a debate competition requires mostly on co-operations among the team mates.I told to myself that no matter what I must be someone who is responsible..Although I knew that participating the debate competition today does not mean that high possibilities will represent the school, alas I still made the desicion strictly that to stay back to be with my team to debate with our spirits...!Yeah!
Sacrificing that great opprtunity going to that coarse, of course I'll feel that quite upset but I had at least learnt some lessons that sometimes we do really need to sacrifice something else to gain success.
And the moment I decided to participate the chinese debate, my team mates and I quickly made our discussion and burn the midnight oil. (The competition will be held the next day and we have not even prepare any of the information before that) So, my team mates and I started to feel nervous on that night, as we are a piece of blank. Of course I felt thousands of worries in my heart during the discussion in my team mate's house. I am not worry about of the winning actually , but I am worry about my team or I myself can't perform the best of ourselves...
Well, today is the day of the competition, and I still haven't finish my script.. What's wrong with me!!? I was trying to finish up as much as possible my script but sometimes i got stuck for the fluency of my script. I did not even have any evidence to prove my words for the script.When i went to ask my team mates, my team mates seem to be more nervous than I am. Although they looked nervous, I still felt very very very happy as they are putting as much effort as they can and they are paying fully concern on it. I am touched of it and so I did not ask them so that not to disturb them to make sure they can be well-prepared soon..
Soon, there comes the competition.. Feeling quite nervous the moment when i stepped in the hall.Later the competition started. My team was selected as the gouvernment, and of course my team mate is the first to stand up to give her views as I am the second debater. I felt so shocked actually when I saw my first debater friend to speak out. I could hardly say that she did really well and extraodinary.. I felt so touched and happy that my team mates are still confident on it..
As I was not well prepared, of coarse I could not perform well..
Soon, the results was being announced.. My team lost!Feeling a bit sad of course(commen reaction)But I still feel enough to be there as my team mates had done their really best. And I felt so sorry for them as maybe I would be one of the factor that cause my team lost. I felt a bit sorry and sad for this...And of coarse higher possibilities I would not be selected to represent the school..
Stilll ok, for me. I think I can take it.. Ha.Anyway I am happy that I had learnt many lessons from the competition above. I had learnt how to co-operate and of coarse not to do things on the last minute..And of coarse I can gain friendship. I do really happy to be with my team mates. Being with them, I feel fun and happy . A lost in the competition doesn't mean anything, but what is important is the learning process.Anyway I do hope my team mates will be selected to be represent the school and to prove that I am the luckiest one that to have the best team mates!
Thanks and best wishes..

Sincerely by Nick,

A love Story

Love actually is the terms that expression of intense feeling towards something or somebody. Being the practical down to earth person I am, for me love is something compassionate that might make the world full of touchness.. Maybe some of the people around had came across what is love and maybe some havent.. Love can be classified as many varieties.. Here, I would like to elaborate more about love between two individuals from different sex which chemistry love can take place...
Recently, some people around me is already in love and for me they look so sweet and happy. For me true love brings touchness and happiness.. Not only that, but some people around me may not involve with love and maybe facing some problems with it..
As for somebody, I think can be consider as those who is having problem with it.. According to "his" memory, there was once a person that came to appear in "his" life and use to give him a great influence since "he" was 13 . "He" jz get to noe "her" in 14 actually... There were so many sweet memories during the past..When "he" was 14, "he" started to know the type of person she is. "He" felt so comfort and happy when chit-chatting with "her" . Whenever anyone of them had any problem, they used to message each other to express each others feelings. They even sometimes use to gossip about somebody. Quite interesting hah?!ha. "He" was so cleared that there was a special incident happened when "he" was in 14. Once, she was facing a love problem. One day, she came to "him" and ask about "his" personal opinion that there is somebody is trying to woo her and asking about what she is going to do.. And "he" told her to consider by herself that love is not something that we can play the fool. "He" recommended that to be concern on her studies and get to know more about herself before she make any desicions. After several months, they didn't chat. "He" jz came across to know that she was with the boy already. "He" had nothing to say just feeling that was "He" right to tell her those things before that?
Later, they use to come up to 15. One day, "he" suddenly came across that she broke up with the guy. "He" was shocked that it happened just all of the sudden.. But later on "he" just feel nothing. But till "he" saw her crying becoz of that incident, "he" started to feel sympathy. And so "he" just console her to be strong and just to concern on her studies as PMR is around the corner..And she promised "him" to be a happy one again. And "he" was thinking that did "he" suppose to console her that time as "he" was trying to stop her from love due to her immature when she was in 14. Anyway, "he" just feel more comfort after seeing her stop crying...
From that day onwards, they came to be even closer. No matter what happened, she will let "him" know and asked about "his" opinions. So they always use to chat to each other everyday.. Sometimes, she even message "him" first to concern about him. That made "him" really curious.. Later on, "he" started to feel that himself having the intense feeling towards her.. And becoz of that, "he" plucked up "his" courage to tell her "his" feelings towards her.. And "he" was so surprised that she had the same feelings that "he" had too. But unfortunately, she did not accept "him".. And that made "him" quite disappointed that time.. Eventhough,"he" was being rejected, "he" never gave up. "He" tried to put in as much as effort as "he" could to gain her heart again as "he" knew that when true love comes nothing can stopped it..After 3 months of effort, finally "he" was accepted. Hah. "He" could not even believe himself. That time "he" just can feel that "he" was so so so excited, happy,joy. And it is so difficult to express "his" feelings into words as that was the first love "he" met.. Although that 3 months is quite tough for "him" to pass through, "he" still feel happy with it..
So "his" first love began like that.. Soon, they came up to 16.."He" still remembered that once they had the oppurtunity that to hands together.The moment "he" got her hands, "he" hold tight from letting it go off.Maybe that would be one of my "his" significant to keep her as someone important in "his" heart tightly and to make sure no one is going to replace it.. That time "he" felt so happy and so lucky to have someone that is so kind, understand, concern, humble and sacrifice for "him" as "his" other half..They also did promise that they will be together no matter what happens.. That was the sweetest memory "he" ever had in "his" life and "he" could not forget it till today ever since it had passed quite some time...Sometimes, she even send something sweet by message to comfort "his" heart and "his" soul...For "him", she was one of the person that can really give "him" a great influence or even give "him" courage or confidence when doing something..
"He" always use to care about her so so so much as she was the first person that "he" ever have my true love ever since "he" was young. She was the first one! So "he" was telling himself that no matter what, "he" will do whatever to protect her from anything.. But everthing changed after couple of months when "he" was in 16, "he" found that she was changing.. "He" was so close with so many boys that she never use to do that in the past. As I saw it, of course as a common reaction "he" will surely feel nervous and worry about it as she was the person that "he" was really really care with..Soon, she started to feel that "he" would care too much and she disliked it.. But that time "he" was just a piece of blank becoz "he" was just trying to mantain her position in my heart.
Until then one day, she came to "him" and told me that "he" was not the one she loved anymore. That time "his" fragile heart really dropped highly from the heaven to the hell.... "He" really could not describe "his" feelings that time. The reason she gave that is "he" cared too much that she did not have spaces enough but then "he" was trying to give her the best "he" could.. "He" was thinking that if she did really cares about what "he" thinks about she should also care what she did will made "him" care or not..
That moment, tears started to roll over "his" cheeks.. Why that "he" was so useless to protect someone or to mantain one's heart.. "He" even thought of committing suicide..Coz that was the first love and of course that was the first time to face the lost of love.....Since that day, she did not come to bother anymore not even a concern..Quite hurt...
Until today "he" was in 17. She did not even keep "him" as a friend in heart I think so. She does not concern "him" anymore as how she concerned in 14. Of course "he" could not expect anymore from her.... "He" was asking himself that izzit only we can give concern to those who we love only??
What Does "he" Suppose to Do?? "He" was trying to erase her appearance in "his" mind but "he" found it tough.. Until today "he" feels quite upset when she just pass through "him" like that even that she saw "him"... Is "he" too childish mentally? Love made"him" feels so confused.. And this love matter did really affect "his" secondary life very much.. "He" doesn't even have a guide what to do...
But "he" just can say that once a true love is there is not that easy to forget as we use to say by words that simple. If one can forget an intense feeling towards someone, "he" thinks that would be consider an immature love............
Anyway, "he" is still who "he" is.. "He" will still fight for "his" aim aimbitiously...And do things that "he" suppose to do everyday to face life.. Hoping that miracle will appear in "his" life...............................................


Story by Nick,

First Time Blogging~

This can be consider the first time ever that i blog on the net to express feelings towards an incident.Feeling quite happy and a great pleasure having this blog. Finally, there was something that i can proclaim to when i feel sad, happy, excited or nervous ...For me, a blog is a place where i can express all my feelings that no one else can feel it or understand it.. Sometimes is so difficult for me to make one understand my position or my own opinion towards a subject. By writing blog, i think it can make me feeling more comfort after finish expressing all those negative feelings...
I am in Form 5 this year, the year that I am going to face the largest challenge in the secondary moment. Feeling quite nervous and excited to know what am I in the no longer future.. I do have "tons" of resolutions for this year, hoping that i can be the better one and leaving sweet and touching memories......
It would be a tough year to face through this year for me... So many hardships that I need to come across soon.. I do hope that those kind of hardhips can really make me grow up in mentally or physically...
Basically, this is the first time i am writing blog and i having no idea what more to express..Hah..
Hoping that i can have a larger space to express my feelings for the incoming blog...